This entry will complete the first month of writing about my journey in 2010 toward living a life centered on Christ and my dedication to becoming a better person. I have shared hopes, dreams, actions and stories that have helped guide me along my way. However, there has been nothing more powerful than the strength God has provided through my commitment to living a life consumed by him.
I am proud to say I was part of the message series at church today entitled, "Fork in the Road." Everyone has a story that can somehow be improved through defining a relationship with God and working to improve their life by making a conscious effort to accept and obey the guidance of the holy spirit. I realize that it can be troubling to identify and acknowledge the things in life that are holding us back from receiving God's best, but I also know that making the decision to confront these strongholds will deliver us into a world without regret. God wants everyone to feel joy and lead fulfilled lives...
Joel Osteen wrote that 'Happiness is a decision you make. Not an emotion you feel'. No matter where we may find ourselves, we have the ability to transform our life into an existence that breathes joy into our souls and the world surrounding us. It is an amazing feeling to know that I have been forgiven for my past mistakes and have been given the blessing to follow my hopes and dreams. I find relief with my new lifestyle trusting that I will never have to look back on my life with the weight of regret on my shoulders asking "What could I have done differently?"
At some point, we all will come to a 'fork in the road' that offers the chance to decide which way we are going to go in the future. We must use this opportunity to repent for our past actions and offer all that we have to give toward living the rest of our life in the light of God's grace. The path may not be easy to follow, but the challenges along the way provide the opportunity to experience pure joy - the ultimate reward.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Play Ball!
Growing up as a child, I sincerely loved playing sports and was drawn to the competitive nature involved with the daily games held throughout the subdivision. Some of my most happy memories involve playing baseball in the street and football between the houses. I was just like many other kids with hopes and dreams of becoming the next star professional athlete... I remember always picturing myself in the world series hitting that game winning home run in the bottom of the ninth. Still to this day if I shut my eyes and think hard enough, I can immediately recall that feeling of hope and anticipation for the future.
Now here I am 20 years later chasing new hopes and dreams with a completely different perspective on life and what my future has in store for me. Even though I am not Alex Rodriguez, I have been blessed with many gifts and am grateful for everything in my life. However, I feel like something is missing and constantly feel the urge to put more effort into living life passionately. As I continue on this journey of change, I truly want to listen to and follow my heart with expectations that it will help find the life I have always wanted.
After thinking about things that make me happy, I decided that my love for the game of baseball is something I can no longer deny. I have been praying about my desire for it to re-enter my life... and I am amazed at how God has started to answer those prayers.
This morning I met with a coach of an adult baseball team I found through the newspaper and worked out with his team. It turns out that the work out was more like a try-out and afterwards he asked if I would like to join the team! He then continued to tell me about the need for umpires and asked if I would be interested in attending a conference in two weeks that would allow me to become certified as an umpire. I also saw my nephew this afternoon and think that he may want to play tee ball giving me the opportunity to coach! So needless to say I am so excited to get back to the diamond and look forward to playing, coaching and even getting paid to umpire!
It is amazing how just this morning finding a way back into the game of baseball seemed somewhat out of reach and now, not even 12 hours later, several opportunities have entered my life. It just really goes to show the power of prayer and determination in life... and I am so glad that in another twenty years, I will be able to look back on even more baseball memories never having to regret not doing something I love so much.
Now here I am 20 years later chasing new hopes and dreams with a completely different perspective on life and what my future has in store for me. Even though I am not Alex Rodriguez, I have been blessed with many gifts and am grateful for everything in my life. However, I feel like something is missing and constantly feel the urge to put more effort into living life passionately. As I continue on this journey of change, I truly want to listen to and follow my heart with expectations that it will help find the life I have always wanted.
After thinking about things that make me happy, I decided that my love for the game of baseball is something I can no longer deny. I have been praying about my desire for it to re-enter my life... and I am amazed at how God has started to answer those prayers.
This morning I met with a coach of an adult baseball team I found through the newspaper and worked out with his team. It turns out that the work out was more like a try-out and afterwards he asked if I would like to join the team! He then continued to tell me about the need for umpires and asked if I would be interested in attending a conference in two weeks that would allow me to become certified as an umpire. I also saw my nephew this afternoon and think that he may want to play tee ball giving me the opportunity to coach! So needless to say I am so excited to get back to the diamond and look forward to playing, coaching and even getting paid to umpire!
It is amazing how just this morning finding a way back into the game of baseball seemed somewhat out of reach and now, not even 12 hours later, several opportunities have entered my life. It just really goes to show the power of prayer and determination in life... and I am so glad that in another twenty years, I will be able to look back on even more baseball memories never having to regret not doing something I love so much.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Reactions
There are certain things in life that have the ability to move directly to the core of a human soul creating memories that get forever etched into the recollection of our existence. These moments can happen at anytime and often show up when they are least expected... but make such an impact on our lives that we become forever changed.
Throughout the course of my lifetime, there has been inspiring teachers, motivational coaches, touching movies, and unforgettable events. I wish I could say that everything has been positive, but unfortunately there has also been unavoidable tragedy, negative people, and horrific life experiences that casted devastating repercussions over my life. It is a combination of these experiences that truly shaped who I am today, but I truly believe I could have been able to decrease the impact of certain negative things that happened in my life by reacting differently.
I realize this may seem like I am dwelling on the past declaring could have...would have...should have's, but honestly I just want to stress the importance of putting emphasis on evaluating attitudes and actions while reacting to tough situations in life. In the past, I have been blinded from God's guidance during stressful times and eventually found myself learning 'the hard way' for many of my 'life lessons'. When I find myself getting caught up in the moment, I want to be able to recognize changes in my behavior and deal with it in a way that allows me to learn more efficiently.
I admit that there are many things that have happened in my life in which I had absolutely no control. However, I always possessed the ability to decide how to handle each and every situation. Moving forward into the future, I am committed to minimizing the drastic consequences that can result from allowing the seriousness of certain situations to cloud my judgment.
The great C.S. Lewis once said, "Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn." Over the course of my lifetime, I have found this to be very true... but I also know that with the right reactions, I can change how I learn.
Throughout the course of my lifetime, there has been inspiring teachers, motivational coaches, touching movies, and unforgettable events. I wish I could say that everything has been positive, but unfortunately there has also been unavoidable tragedy, negative people, and horrific life experiences that casted devastating repercussions over my life. It is a combination of these experiences that truly shaped who I am today, but I truly believe I could have been able to decrease the impact of certain negative things that happened in my life by reacting differently.
I realize this may seem like I am dwelling on the past declaring could have...would have...should have's, but honestly I just want to stress the importance of putting emphasis on evaluating attitudes and actions while reacting to tough situations in life. In the past, I have been blinded from God's guidance during stressful times and eventually found myself learning 'the hard way' for many of my 'life lessons'. When I find myself getting caught up in the moment, I want to be able to recognize changes in my behavior and deal with it in a way that allows me to learn more efficiently.
I admit that there are many things that have happened in my life in which I had absolutely no control. However, I always possessed the ability to decide how to handle each and every situation. Moving forward into the future, I am committed to minimizing the drastic consequences that can result from allowing the seriousness of certain situations to cloud my judgment.
The great C.S. Lewis once said, "Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn." Over the course of my lifetime, I have found this to be very true... but I also know that with the right reactions, I can change how I learn.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Baby Steps
When looking for areas of improvement, I often encounter a barrier that separates thinking about change and making it happen. I find that I am bombarded with stress often feeling overwhelmed by everything life seems to throw at me. It is at these times that I conquer this anxiety by remembering that God would never give me too much to handle and provides all that I need to succeed. It also helps to remind myself that life is a journey - not a short weekend trip. By being patient and showing a steady dedication, I know I will be able to overcome any challenge and fulfill whatever my heart desires.
I can not help but to think about the movie "What about Bob?" and Bill Murray's use of 'baby steps' to conquer all his unbelievable phobias. Throughout the movie, Bob was able to move throughout his day making gradual progress toward defeating obstacles that once seemed impossible to overcome. Bob was able to see that he had the strength and courage to confront his fears and become victorious - but of course not without destroying Dr. Leo Marvin's life.
The use of these 'baby steps' in life can be a wonderful way to look at implementing change. No matter how overwhelming a task or situation may seem, there is always a way to break it down and work through it little by little. As the pace of life seems to increase, so will the amount of baby steps resulting in the huge positive change that once seemed too far out of reach.
I have faith that every baby step in the right direction will accumulate over time and lead me to living a much more rewarding lifestyle. I refuse to let the overwhelming nature of life hold me back from making my way toward a more positive future... taking one baby step at a time.
I can not help but to think about the movie "What about Bob?" and Bill Murray's use of 'baby steps' to conquer all his unbelievable phobias. Throughout the movie, Bob was able to move throughout his day making gradual progress toward defeating obstacles that once seemed impossible to overcome. Bob was able to see that he had the strength and courage to confront his fears and become victorious - but of course not without destroying Dr. Leo Marvin's life.
The use of these 'baby steps' in life can be a wonderful way to look at implementing change. No matter how overwhelming a task or situation may seem, there is always a way to break it down and work through it little by little. As the pace of life seems to increase, so will the amount of baby steps resulting in the huge positive change that once seemed too far out of reach.
I have faith that every baby step in the right direction will accumulate over time and lead me to living a much more rewarding lifestyle. I refuse to let the overwhelming nature of life hold me back from making my way toward a more positive future... taking one baby step at a time.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Trusting God
Today I gave a video testimonial on the journey of my life for a message series at church called "Fork in the Road". It was quite nerve-wrecking to have to recall my past and speak candidly about the good and bad knowing that it will be viewed by the entire congregation. I did my best to calm my nerves and tell my story in a way that will hopefully provide inspiration to people out there that may be facing similar battles with addiction and depression.
I was asked if I would be willing to give a testimony early last week and prayed for God to guide me in my decision. It would have been much easier for me to have denied the opportunity, but ultimately I believe that God wanted me to put all my effort into it. I trust that the video might be able to really reach someone that may need help and provide hope for a way out of a negative lifestyle.
Now that I have completed the testimonial, I have been running the experience through my head over and over again. I really hope it turns out well... it was quite different having two cameras in my face while attempting to share some of the most personal stories of my life. Even though it was tough, it has provided me with a great amount of closure on that past lifestyle and really reinforced just how far I have come in my journey of change. I can see clearly all the wonderful things God has done to transform me into the positive and productive person I am today... and I can feel God smiling down at me while saying, "Thanks for trusting me!"
I was asked if I would be willing to give a testimony early last week and prayed for God to guide me in my decision. It would have been much easier for me to have denied the opportunity, but ultimately I believe that God wanted me to put all my effort into it. I trust that the video might be able to really reach someone that may need help and provide hope for a way out of a negative lifestyle.
Now that I have completed the testimonial, I have been running the experience through my head over and over again. I really hope it turns out well... it was quite different having two cameras in my face while attempting to share some of the most personal stories of my life. Even though it was tough, it has provided me with a great amount of closure on that past lifestyle and really reinforced just how far I have come in my journey of change. I can see clearly all the wonderful things God has done to transform me into the positive and productive person I am today... and I can feel God smiling down at me while saying, "Thanks for trusting me!"
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Developing Positive Habits
Every person is capable of producing both positive and negative thoughts and will experience results in life that correspond with the type of thoughts they allow to filter into reality through their actions. By putting effort into living a life that promotes love, peace and kindness, a person has a much better chance at experiencing a happy and fulfilling lifestyle. On the contrary, living life angry, belligerent and impatient can make someone much more vulnerable to experiencing an unproductive and stressful lifestyle.
I was reading an article that was reporting on a study that ninety percent of a person's everyday behavior was habitual. As I put more thought into this idea, I could see that from the moment I open my eyes in the morning to the moment my head hits the pillow most of my day was all part of a routine. Connecting my desire to live a positive lifestyle with the habitual nature of being human, I could see the importance of correcting negative behaviors and establishing more positive habits in order to implement positive change in my life.
In order to get started, I needed to put some time and effort into identifying my daily habits. I looked at behaviors throughout my day and found that I was very habitual in areas dealing with my cleanliness, diet/exercise and entertainment. After making a concrete list, I was able to label each as positive or negative and then reflected on each so that I could decide whether I should eliminate, cut back, continue or increase the behavior in the future.
By looking for ways to improve my habits, I believe I have found a more efficient way to becoming a more productive and successful person... I just need to stay committed to practicing these new and improved behaviors and in time they too will become habits.
I was reading an article that was reporting on a study that ninety percent of a person's everyday behavior was habitual. As I put more thought into this idea, I could see that from the moment I open my eyes in the morning to the moment my head hits the pillow most of my day was all part of a routine. Connecting my desire to live a positive lifestyle with the habitual nature of being human, I could see the importance of correcting negative behaviors and establishing more positive habits in order to implement positive change in my life.
In order to get started, I needed to put some time and effort into identifying my daily habits. I looked at behaviors throughout my day and found that I was very habitual in areas dealing with my cleanliness, diet/exercise and entertainment. After making a concrete list, I was able to label each as positive or negative and then reflected on each so that I could decide whether I should eliminate, cut back, continue or increase the behavior in the future.
By looking for ways to improve my habits, I believe I have found a more efficient way to becoming a more productive and successful person... I just need to stay committed to practicing these new and improved behaviors and in time they too will become habits.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Conquering Strongholds
Today I went to a wake for a friend who was taken from this earth prematurely. We went way back and I will always remember him through wonderful childhood memories of playground drama, Nintendo victories and mischievous sleep overs. I wish I could say I was there for him throughout the last couple of years, but the truth is that we had lost touch. I trust that he left this world knowing he was loved and appreciated. I pray for him and his family in this time of true sorrow... the world has lost a wonderful person.
I set out to write this blog to report on my journey of change with expectations of sharing happy and exciting events with hopes that they would provide positive inspiration on a daily basis. However, the loss of this friend brings up a dark side of life that is prevalent in today's world and needs to be discussed in hopes that the evilness will someday be conquered.
Addiction and the awful things that surround this disease claimed my friend's life and threaten many others every day. I am forever grateful for the work of God in my life and the strength he has provided to me over the past 18 months to help free myself from the chains of addiction. Drugs and alcohol had literally taken control of my existence and were allowing the devil to carry out his evil intentions. In order to stop this misery, I had to take a good look at my life and work to release the strongholds that were keeping me from receiving God's glory.
My road to recovery began by acknowledging that the Devil had strongholds set up in my mind that needed to be broken with a relentless dedication to restoring hope. I had been completely destroyed mentally after years of abuse that resulted in a build up of negative thoughts and feelings. With the help of the Lord, I simply decided to think only positive thoughts and with each passing day improved to the point where I was able to accept the help I needed to recover.
After surviving the initial battle, I vowed to never give up and continued taking back my life from the devil one day at a time keeping faith that God would provide me with all the strength I needed to succeed. I prayed everyday for guidance to stay committed to recovery and took advantage of every opportunity to reach out and help others. I allowed the holy spirit to take root deep inside my heart and made the conscious decision to live life under its guidance.
As I keep seeking transformation, God continues answering my prayers by relentlessly powering my positive attitude and constantly bringing people and things into my life that make me a better person. Over the past year, I have been able to shift my concentration to some other strongholds and will constantly work to bring more of God's glory into my life. I realize that this incessant battle is far from over, but I feel like I am winning the fight... and strive to use every new day as an opportunity to show God how thankful I am to be alive.
I set out to write this blog to report on my journey of change with expectations of sharing happy and exciting events with hopes that they would provide positive inspiration on a daily basis. However, the loss of this friend brings up a dark side of life that is prevalent in today's world and needs to be discussed in hopes that the evilness will someday be conquered.
Addiction and the awful things that surround this disease claimed my friend's life and threaten many others every day. I am forever grateful for the work of God in my life and the strength he has provided to me over the past 18 months to help free myself from the chains of addiction. Drugs and alcohol had literally taken control of my existence and were allowing the devil to carry out his evil intentions. In order to stop this misery, I had to take a good look at my life and work to release the strongholds that were keeping me from receiving God's glory.
My road to recovery began by acknowledging that the Devil had strongholds set up in my mind that needed to be broken with a relentless dedication to restoring hope. I had been completely destroyed mentally after years of abuse that resulted in a build up of negative thoughts and feelings. With the help of the Lord, I simply decided to think only positive thoughts and with each passing day improved to the point where I was able to accept the help I needed to recover.
After surviving the initial battle, I vowed to never give up and continued taking back my life from the devil one day at a time keeping faith that God would provide me with all the strength I needed to succeed. I prayed everyday for guidance to stay committed to recovery and took advantage of every opportunity to reach out and help others. I allowed the holy spirit to take root deep inside my heart and made the conscious decision to live life under its guidance.
As I keep seeking transformation, God continues answering my prayers by relentlessly powering my positive attitude and constantly bringing people and things into my life that make me a better person. Over the past year, I have been able to shift my concentration to some other strongholds and will constantly work to bring more of God's glory into my life. I realize that this incessant battle is far from over, but I feel like I am winning the fight... and strive to use every new day as an opportunity to show God how thankful I am to be alive.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Following Christ
Today's message at Suncrest was entitled "Not a Fan". It stressed the importance of being a follower of Christ by living every day with a passion that shows complete dedication to him. Looking back at the last year, I have been developing a relationship with God that has helped bring joy and happiness to my life. As I continue to seek more ways to worship, I trust that I will be constantly transformed and look forward to all the blessings he has planned for my future.
My life's journey has been a roller coaster and throughout that time I have experienced many stages of belief. I have always had the holy spirit living inside of me, but I have not always had the presence of mind to listen to and live life under its guidance. After committing to obedience, I have noticed that I can feel his presence throughout my day providing the strength to overcome any challenge and take advantage of all opportunities in front of me.
I believe the most influential force in growing as a Christian is passion and dedication. Simply showing up at church or saying I believe in God did not result in the fulfilling relationship that I have experienced by giving all of my heart to him. By beginning each day with prayer, I invite the Lord to walk with me through my entire day and am constantly graced with his comfort during both times of need and celebration. My daily walk with God and my belief in Jesus as his son has restored my life through forgiveness and provides an everlasting love that leads me to living the life I have always wanted to live.
My life's journey has been a roller coaster and throughout that time I have experienced many stages of belief. I have always had the holy spirit living inside of me, but I have not always had the presence of mind to listen to and live life under its guidance. After committing to obedience, I have noticed that I can feel his presence throughout my day providing the strength to overcome any challenge and take advantage of all opportunities in front of me.
I believe the most influential force in growing as a Christian is passion and dedication. Simply showing up at church or saying I believe in God did not result in the fulfilling relationship that I have experienced by giving all of my heart to him. By beginning each day with prayer, I invite the Lord to walk with me through my entire day and am constantly graced with his comfort during both times of need and celebration. My daily walk with God and my belief in Jesus as his son has restored my life through forgiveness and provides an everlasting love that leads me to living the life I have always wanted to live.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
My Identity
Today I went with my niece and nephew to enjoy the energy packed movie, "Alvin and the Chipmunks - The Squeakquel". I am not going to deny it... those chipmunks sure can put on a show! It was interesting to see the chipmunks try to seamlessly blend into the high school atmosphere... after all they are totally singing and dancing chipmunks. So all in all, I guess I am glad I was able to talk them into seeing it... I mean I could have had to go see "The Rock" in "The Tooth Fairy".
On a more serious note, the movie actually made me revisit the concept of identity. I have been thinking about the topic for a few weeks since it is something that I have worked to reshape during my journey of change and often find myself looking in the mirror asking the question, "What exactly is my true identity?" It is so easy to be confused living in such a wild world with so many outside influences... making it even easier to get surprised with an undesirable identity.
Using the chipmunks movie as an example, each actor (and chipmunk) perfectly accentuated all the outward characteristics that it takes to portray an accurate account of their roles. There were many stereotypical presentations of characters including the jock, the nerd, the overweight slob and even the wanna-be-hip adult figure and each could easily find themselves falling into general categories forgetting everything that makes them unique - their true identity. As the movie progressed, each character was not able to really shine until they were in touch with their identity and the corresponding personality/actions.
Identity is defined as the sense of self after providing sameness or continuity in personality over time. In order to shape my identity, it was important for me to understand that my identity is directly related to a self esteem generated through my thoughts and actions. My identity was directly fueled by the power of choice. Understanding all of this, I realized that I have always had the ability to possess a positive identity... I simply need to be a positive person each and every day.
On a more serious note, the movie actually made me revisit the concept of identity. I have been thinking about the topic for a few weeks since it is something that I have worked to reshape during my journey of change and often find myself looking in the mirror asking the question, "What exactly is my true identity?" It is so easy to be confused living in such a wild world with so many outside influences... making it even easier to get surprised with an undesirable identity.
Using the chipmunks movie as an example, each actor (and chipmunk) perfectly accentuated all the outward characteristics that it takes to portray an accurate account of their roles. There were many stereotypical presentations of characters including the jock, the nerd, the overweight slob and even the wanna-be-hip adult figure and each could easily find themselves falling into general categories forgetting everything that makes them unique - their true identity. As the movie progressed, each character was not able to really shine until they were in touch with their identity and the corresponding personality/actions.
Identity is defined as the sense of self after providing sameness or continuity in personality over time. In order to shape my identity, it was important for me to understand that my identity is directly related to a self esteem generated through my thoughts and actions. My identity was directly fueled by the power of choice. Understanding all of this, I realized that I have always had the ability to possess a positive identity... I simply need to be a positive person each and every day.
Friday, January 22, 2010
The Energy of Encouragement
There is positive energy waiting to be unleashed simply through the act of encouragement. I am always amazed at what I can accomplish after I notice that somebody believes in me... and how much easier a task may seem when I know there is someone in my corner. I also have faith that bringing out the best in others will bring out the best that is inside of me.
Looking back at my life, there have been multiple people whose encouragement helped propel me to new heights... family, friends, coworkers, teachers and coaches. In many of these occasions, they were rather simple conversations that had an enormous impact on me as a person. As a matter of fact, the best choices I have made were a direct result of blessings spoken into me by amazing people God brought into my life.
I plan to grow my relationships by putting forth positive words of encouragement and jumping on every opportunity to help others recognize and take advantage of their gifts. I sincerely believe that a heart felt comment made at the right time can help someone reach their full potential. For as long as I look to identify ways to bless others, there will always be someone out there that I can build up with words to boost their self confidence or direction in life.
I will also challenge those around me to shoot for the stars encouraging them to create lofty goals and chase their wildest dreams. I am positive they have what it takes to be successful... God has blessed everyone with the ability to live a life full of glory and I cannot wait for the chance to turn the next simple conversation into a source of life changing inspiration.
Looking back at my life, there have been multiple people whose encouragement helped propel me to new heights... family, friends, coworkers, teachers and coaches. In many of these occasions, they were rather simple conversations that had an enormous impact on me as a person. As a matter of fact, the best choices I have made were a direct result of blessings spoken into me by amazing people God brought into my life.
I plan to grow my relationships by putting forth positive words of encouragement and jumping on every opportunity to help others recognize and take advantage of their gifts. I sincerely believe that a heart felt comment made at the right time can help someone reach their full potential. For as long as I look to identify ways to bless others, there will always be someone out there that I can build up with words to boost their self confidence or direction in life.
I will also challenge those around me to shoot for the stars encouraging them to create lofty goals and chase their wildest dreams. I am positive they have what it takes to be successful... God has blessed everyone with the ability to live a life full of glory and I cannot wait for the chance to turn the next simple conversation into a source of life changing inspiration.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Living My Legacy
I was blessed with the opportunity to share lunch with some senior citizens today through the soup and serenity program. I almost feel bad using the term "senior citizens" because they were filled with so much energy and enthusiasm... I could tell they still felt twenty years old at heart. They were definitely able to add some joy to my day with unbelievable stories and some much appreciated shared wisdom. I honestly can't wait to go back next week!
After leaving the church where the program is held, I found myself thinking about the experience and the conversations that we exchanged. It inspired me to really take an in-depth look at my life and desired future. What advice would I have to offer someone years younger than I? What stories in my life would I be most proud to share with another person? What will my legacy carry forward?
I realize that I have already lived out 27 years of my "story". Even though I expect my book to be much longer, there is no way to know for sure. Keeping this perspective in mind, I can see the importance on living for the now and working each day to develop a legacy that will have a lasting impact. I want to be able to look back at my life and have confidence knowing that I did all that I could possibly do to live a full and productive life always chasing after my dreams, bringing joy to others and enjoying all the blessings along the way!
After leaving the church where the program is held, I found myself thinking about the experience and the conversations that we exchanged. It inspired me to really take an in-depth look at my life and desired future. What advice would I have to offer someone years younger than I? What stories in my life would I be most proud to share with another person? What will my legacy carry forward?
I realize that I have already lived out 27 years of my "story". Even though I expect my book to be much longer, there is no way to know for sure. Keeping this perspective in mind, I can see the importance on living for the now and working each day to develop a legacy that will have a lasting impact. I want to be able to look back at my life and have confidence knowing that I did all that I could possibly do to live a full and productive life always chasing after my dreams, bringing joy to others and enjoying all the blessings along the way!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Designating Time to Think
I have come to recognize the importance of designating a specific time to think and have decided to use this time to cultivate positive direction in my life. During my time of thinking, I let my thoughts run free and record them as they filter through my mind. I sincerely believe that with an appropriate dedication to thinking I can change my life by giving birth to and nurturing ideas on a daily basis. I have faith that staying committed to a detailed thinking process supports my ability to achieve future success.
In order to extract the full potential from my thoughts, I must keep feeding my desire for finding success and improving my life. I continually look for opportunities to expose myself to good sources of inspiration - mostly by surrounding myself with positive people and things. I also place a great amount of effort into thinking only positive thoughts that motivate me from the minute I wake up to the minute I fall asleep. I am constantly amazed at my ability to generate one great thought after another and feel blessed every time I allow myself to experience these times of enlightenment.
I am often flooded with excitement during these times of in depth thought. This excitement normally results in my inability to sleep since my mind is running wild with world changing ideas. I have found that if I am struggling to relax due to an influx of wonderful thoughts I need to write them down so I can ease my anxiety that they might be lost forever upon falling asleep... and sometimes not even that can calm this powerful process!
Moving forward with my ideas, I will concentrate on developing them into actual actions that will result in helping me become who I am striving to be and ultimately fulfill my destiny. Based on that statement alone, the importance of taking the time out of my day to simply think is absolutely priceless.
In order to extract the full potential from my thoughts, I must keep feeding my desire for finding success and improving my life. I continually look for opportunities to expose myself to good sources of inspiration - mostly by surrounding myself with positive people and things. I also place a great amount of effort into thinking only positive thoughts that motivate me from the minute I wake up to the minute I fall asleep. I am constantly amazed at my ability to generate one great thought after another and feel blessed every time I allow myself to experience these times of enlightenment.
I am often flooded with excitement during these times of in depth thought. This excitement normally results in my inability to sleep since my mind is running wild with world changing ideas. I have found that if I am struggling to relax due to an influx of wonderful thoughts I need to write them down so I can ease my anxiety that they might be lost forever upon falling asleep... and sometimes not even that can calm this powerful process!
Moving forward with my ideas, I will concentrate on developing them into actual actions that will result in helping me become who I am striving to be and ultimately fulfill my destiny. Based on that statement alone, the importance of taking the time out of my day to simply think is absolutely priceless.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Finding Happiness
I have stressed the importance of happiness my entire life and believe it will be a lifelong pursuit. By attempting to identify sources of pure joy, I hope to be better able to generate more satisfaction from life and experience a greater sense of well-being. After taking an honest look at myself, I have decided that the following areas of life have the ability to make an enormous impact on my level of happiness.
I must concentrate on developing and maintaining important relationships with family and friends. There is a "peace of mind" that accompanies knowing that I have been able to help someone or that someone will be there for me when I may need help. Also, I find that there is a wonderful feeling of grace knowing that my family is together and at peace with one another. In order to benefit from this source of happiness, I must strive to connect with others and continually bring joy to the lives of those closest to me.
My ability to experience a sense of "community" also plays a large role in my sense of well being. I absolutely love going to church and being in a positive environment where I can experience the feeling of belongingness. I will continue to worship weekly and seek opportunities to become more involved in the events at Suncrest. I also recognize this same source of happiness by staying involved in team sports and just working together with others toward a common objective.
I believe that one of the greatest sources of happiness can be experienced through identifying and enjoying "little things." I will work to increase happiness by worrying less about big sources of joy and finding a steady stream of small sources. I have realized by incorporating things such as prayer and exercise I have dramatically changed my life. A relaxing walk on a sunny day or a smile exchanged with a stranger can provide unbelievable benefits for being such a simple act.
I have also discovered through my search that long-lasting joy appears to be directly related to heart felt feelings. For example, the happiness I experience from serving does not materialize upon receiving praise or seeing the results. The true feeling of happiness comes from knowing I did something to benefit another person. I also believe that the process of showing commitment and dedication brings happiness to my life. I absolutely love the feeling of pride that stems from living life passionately!
I'm positive I can experience happiness for the rest of my life on a daily basis. I simply have to take advantage of all the blessings currently in my life and work to recognize future sources of joy.
I must concentrate on developing and maintaining important relationships with family and friends. There is a "peace of mind" that accompanies knowing that I have been able to help someone or that someone will be there for me when I may need help. Also, I find that there is a wonderful feeling of grace knowing that my family is together and at peace with one another. In order to benefit from this source of happiness, I must strive to connect with others and continually bring joy to the lives of those closest to me.
My ability to experience a sense of "community" also plays a large role in my sense of well being. I absolutely love going to church and being in a positive environment where I can experience the feeling of belongingness. I will continue to worship weekly and seek opportunities to become more involved in the events at Suncrest. I also recognize this same source of happiness by staying involved in team sports and just working together with others toward a common objective.
I believe that one of the greatest sources of happiness can be experienced through identifying and enjoying "little things." I will work to increase happiness by worrying less about big sources of joy and finding a steady stream of small sources. I have realized by incorporating things such as prayer and exercise I have dramatically changed my life. A relaxing walk on a sunny day or a smile exchanged with a stranger can provide unbelievable benefits for being such a simple act.
I have also discovered through my search that long-lasting joy appears to be directly related to heart felt feelings. For example, the happiness I experience from serving does not materialize upon receiving praise or seeing the results. The true feeling of happiness comes from knowing I did something to benefit another person. I also believe that the process of showing commitment and dedication brings happiness to my life. I absolutely love the feeling of pride that stems from living life passionately!
I'm positive I can experience happiness for the rest of my life on a daily basis. I simply have to take advantage of all the blessings currently in my life and work to recognize future sources of joy.
Monday, January 18, 2010
The Power of the Mind
The power of the mind is absolutely amazing. I have always believed in the concept of "mind over matter", but I can now see I failed to practice this belief after looking back at some of the struggles I have battled with over the past few years. As I move forward in life, I definitely want to identify how I can use this belief to my advantage.
I could see proof for this concept during my work out this morning. I was lifting weights noticing that I suddenly became more fatigued when I approached the final two reps of each set of ten. I decided that I would try to harness the energy of the mind by starting out with the goal of 15 reps instead of 10. I really wasn't too surprised when it was now rep 14 and 15 that I was struggling to lift... I was totally psyching myself out!
Looking back at some stages of my life, I could have easily cured times of depression and anxiety by simply changing my thinking. I was spending too much time feeling down and not really doing anything about it. I should have been starting each day by speaking words of encouragement toward myself and thinking about all the wonderful blessings in my life. This simple little action that only would have cost me about 5 minutes a day would have been enough to restore the positive attitude needed to break free from that negative lifestyle.
I can also see benefit from this belief when I am approaching situations that seem to be overwhelming in nature. No matter what the situation, I must remember that I have been given the ability to handle anything. Whether it takes extra energy or the willingness to ask someone for help, I am confident I will be able to conquer any challenge. However, I must make it a habit to remind myself of this fact in order to guarantee the right mind set... only through this type of deliberate action will I be able to fully utilize the power of the mind!
I could see proof for this concept during my work out this morning. I was lifting weights noticing that I suddenly became more fatigued when I approached the final two reps of each set of ten. I decided that I would try to harness the energy of the mind by starting out with the goal of 15 reps instead of 10. I really wasn't too surprised when it was now rep 14 and 15 that I was struggling to lift... I was totally psyching myself out!
Looking back at some stages of my life, I could have easily cured times of depression and anxiety by simply changing my thinking. I was spending too much time feeling down and not really doing anything about it. I should have been starting each day by speaking words of encouragement toward myself and thinking about all the wonderful blessings in my life. This simple little action that only would have cost me about 5 minutes a day would have been enough to restore the positive attitude needed to break free from that negative lifestyle.
I can also see benefit from this belief when I am approaching situations that seem to be overwhelming in nature. No matter what the situation, I must remember that I have been given the ability to handle anything. Whether it takes extra energy or the willingness to ask someone for help, I am confident I will be able to conquer any challenge. However, I must make it a habit to remind myself of this fact in order to guarantee the right mind set... only through this type of deliberate action will I be able to fully utilize the power of the mind!
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Community
Participating in church this morning, I sincerely experienced what it feels like to be part of a community. I exchanged a series of handshakes and smiles as I made my way to my seat. It is a wonderful feeling to have a sense of belonging in an otherwise chaotic world. I am so grateful for Suncrest and the opportunity to connect with others that share similar interests.
My world has been changed by this notion of "community". God has blessed me over the past year by bringing people into my life that have directly contributed to helping me become a better person. Specifically, I am a member of 2 different groups that provide companionship and support throughout the week. I sincerely believe that I am able to feed off of the positive energy of these groups. They have presented the opportunity to develop new friendships that have the ability to grow into lifelong relationships.
I am thankful for the chance to experience this sense of "community" and will continue to offer all that I can give at every single meeting. I want to be remembered as someone who adds energy to the environment... someone who people want to have in their lives. I trust that this mind set will result in a two way street that builds an avenue toward ultimate happiness and fulfillment.
My world has been changed by this notion of "community". God has blessed me over the past year by bringing people into my life that have directly contributed to helping me become a better person. Specifically, I am a member of 2 different groups that provide companionship and support throughout the week. I sincerely believe that I am able to feed off of the positive energy of these groups. They have presented the opportunity to develop new friendships that have the ability to grow into lifelong relationships.
I am thankful for the chance to experience this sense of "community" and will continue to offer all that I can give at every single meeting. I want to be remembered as someone who adds energy to the environment... someone who people want to have in their lives. I trust that this mind set will result in a two way street that builds an avenue toward ultimate happiness and fulfillment.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Productive Unemployment
Even though there are many hardships with being unemployed, it has given me the chance to really concentrate on self improvement. I have been able to realign what is important and work to make those areas first and foremost in my life. With an ample amount of free time, I have been able to focus on opportunities to serve, participate in extracurricular activities and make time for reading/journaling.
My life just a short time ago seemed so out of control and unfocused leaving no time to engage in events that provided fulfillment. I am excited about getting more involved in positive activities throughout the year. By finding and participating in such events, I will be able to experience true joy benefiting mentally, physically and spiritually.
Serving has been a wonderful way for me to feel useful and keep my mind off of my current unemployed status. I try to volunteer my time and express my desire to help my community through opportunities at my church. I also help out the soup and serenity program weekly where I serve participants and ask them for prayer requests. These experiences have been very rewarding and I will continue to seek out these times of blessing.
I also enjoy playing in organized sports and it continues to be something I look forward to on a weekly basis. I am currently participating in a flag football league which I am very thankful to have found. It has been a wonderful gift to reconnect with good people that I have not had contact with for some time and has helped to begin building new friendships. Being involved athletically has also made me realize the importance of exercise and made me concentrate more on living a healthy lifestyle. I am looking into joining an adult baseball league and am very excited to get back to the diamond this Spring!
I have also been able to devote more attention to reading books and journaling. These activities have provided me with the chance to really focus my thoughts and concentrate on my goals. I have been able to practice working to continuously find things that advance my knowledge in the area of business and develop skills that will benefit my ability to succeed in the future.
However, I must also be aware of activities that can inhibit personal growth. One of my habits that I must work to limit is watching television. I quickly find myself addicted to certain shows once I start watching them making it hard to keep motivated toward completing other activities. I have felt much better about myself since I began practicing obedience over this habit and only allowing myself to get lost in my lazy boy recliner for designated periods of time. It has been tough sacrificing my ability to "Keep Up with the Kardashians" but I think I will survive (Sarcasm Intended).
I plan to start this week off by applying for several part time positions and hope I can find something that will ease the financial burden of unemployment while I look for a full-time position. I pray that I find a job that offers a positive environment that supports my values and objectives while enabling me to continue enjoying all the positive activities currently in my life and those which I plan to participate in throughout the upcoming year.
My life just a short time ago seemed so out of control and unfocused leaving no time to engage in events that provided fulfillment. I am excited about getting more involved in positive activities throughout the year. By finding and participating in such events, I will be able to experience true joy benefiting mentally, physically and spiritually.
Serving has been a wonderful way for me to feel useful and keep my mind off of my current unemployed status. I try to volunteer my time and express my desire to help my community through opportunities at my church. I also help out the soup and serenity program weekly where I serve participants and ask them for prayer requests. These experiences have been very rewarding and I will continue to seek out these times of blessing.
I also enjoy playing in organized sports and it continues to be something I look forward to on a weekly basis. I am currently participating in a flag football league which I am very thankful to have found. It has been a wonderful gift to reconnect with good people that I have not had contact with for some time and has helped to begin building new friendships. Being involved athletically has also made me realize the importance of exercise and made me concentrate more on living a healthy lifestyle. I am looking into joining an adult baseball league and am very excited to get back to the diamond this Spring!
I have also been able to devote more attention to reading books and journaling. These activities have provided me with the chance to really focus my thoughts and concentrate on my goals. I have been able to practice working to continuously find things that advance my knowledge in the area of business and develop skills that will benefit my ability to succeed in the future.
However, I must also be aware of activities that can inhibit personal growth. One of my habits that I must work to limit is watching television. I quickly find myself addicted to certain shows once I start watching them making it hard to keep motivated toward completing other activities. I have felt much better about myself since I began practicing obedience over this habit and only allowing myself to get lost in my lazy boy recliner for designated periods of time. It has been tough sacrificing my ability to "Keep Up with the Kardashians" but I think I will survive (Sarcasm Intended).
I plan to start this week off by applying for several part time positions and hope I can find something that will ease the financial burden of unemployment while I look for a full-time position. I pray that I find a job that offers a positive environment that supports my values and objectives while enabling me to continue enjoying all the positive activities currently in my life and those which I plan to participate in throughout the upcoming year.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Kneeling to God
When I woke up today, I immediately wanted to write about the power of prayer in my life. It has played an integral role in helping to guide me through this quest for spiritual growth and worldly change. For almost a year, I have incorporated personal discussions with God as a staple to my day. I pray for help, guidance, restored health and comfort in my own life and also for my family, friends and people all throughout the world.
I participate in a daily bible study sent by email that discusses a particular passage and includes a daily prayer request along with a "Today Along the Way" section. I have included the "Today Along the Way" section from today's email below since it directly coincides with what I wanted to write about today.
It may be relatively easy to recall people you know who have stubbornly ignored the power of God and adamantly refused to trust in Him. But we may need to reflect a bit more deeply to remember times when our own hearts have been so blinded. Maybe you're even feeling that way right now. If you are facing a strong giant in your own life, put your trust in the omnipotent Lord and Creator of all. Don't let fear stand in the way of doing what is right.
It made me think back to a year ago when I did not embrace God's love for me. I was "religious" and believed in God, but in no way participated in a functional relationship with him. It was as if I was purposely ignoring him and only turned to him in times of extreme need. Despite my actions, I am so grateful that he did not give up on me and found a way to save me from this ignorant way of life.
I remember the day when I decided to put all my trust back into the Lord. I was so filled with feelings of hopelessness... and feared that I was beyond being saved. However, I had this overwhelming feeling inside that was calling out for me to acknowledge God and ask for forgiveness. I had absolutely no idea how to even begin and did not act... until I met Bobby.
That evening I attended a meeting where I would meet a man named Bobby who spoke in a very straight forward manner and seemed to be thriving despite coming from a background much like the situation I was currently experiencing. Bobby could tell that I was feeling conquered and asked me if I was religious. When I told him yes, he immediately asked me when was the last time I physically got down on my knees and prayed to God.
I immediately connected my earlier feelings with this comment and recognized this conversation as God's answer on how I should recharge my relationship with him. That evening before I got into bed, I knelt next to my bed with my hands folded and poured my heart out to the Lord. I spoke sincerely and honestly and ultimately asked for forgiveness and help to overcome my situation.
I found out that night that physically getting on my knees to talk with God allows me to show him my obedience and make my prayer experience much more personal. During a time of extreme need, God found a way into my life and started a revolution that has changed my life forever. He has not only helped to conquer my fear, but replaced that feeling of fear with hope and inspiration. A miracle that all started simply by me kneeling besides my bed...
I participate in a daily bible study sent by email that discusses a particular passage and includes a daily prayer request along with a "Today Along the Way" section. I have included the "Today Along the Way" section from today's email below since it directly coincides with what I wanted to write about today.
It may be relatively easy to recall people you know who have stubbornly ignored the power of God and adamantly refused to trust in Him. But we may need to reflect a bit more deeply to remember times when our own hearts have been so blinded. Maybe you're even feeling that way right now. If you are facing a strong giant in your own life, put your trust in the omnipotent Lord and Creator of all. Don't let fear stand in the way of doing what is right.
It made me think back to a year ago when I did not embrace God's love for me. I was "religious" and believed in God, but in no way participated in a functional relationship with him. It was as if I was purposely ignoring him and only turned to him in times of extreme need. Despite my actions, I am so grateful that he did not give up on me and found a way to save me from this ignorant way of life.
I remember the day when I decided to put all my trust back into the Lord. I was so filled with feelings of hopelessness... and feared that I was beyond being saved. However, I had this overwhelming feeling inside that was calling out for me to acknowledge God and ask for forgiveness. I had absolutely no idea how to even begin and did not act... until I met Bobby.
That evening I attended a meeting where I would meet a man named Bobby who spoke in a very straight forward manner and seemed to be thriving despite coming from a background much like the situation I was currently experiencing. Bobby could tell that I was feeling conquered and asked me if I was religious. When I told him yes, he immediately asked me when was the last time I physically got down on my knees and prayed to God.
I immediately connected my earlier feelings with this comment and recognized this conversation as God's answer on how I should recharge my relationship with him. That evening before I got into bed, I knelt next to my bed with my hands folded and poured my heart out to the Lord. I spoke sincerely and honestly and ultimately asked for forgiveness and help to overcome my situation.
I found out that night that physically getting on my knees to talk with God allows me to show him my obedience and make my prayer experience much more personal. During a time of extreme need, God found a way into my life and started a revolution that has changed my life forever. He has not only helped to conquer my fear, but replaced that feeling of fear with hope and inspiration. A miracle that all started simply by me kneeling besides my bed...
Thursday, January 14, 2010
My Head's Held High
It's a wonderful thing to be able to embrace each day with my head held high. I absolutely love the feeling of confidence that accompanies living life to the fullest. I experience an amazing amount of pride when I can honestly end each day knowing I did everything in my power to bring goodness to myself and those around me.
I realize that my life is not exactly where I wish it would be right now, but I am choosing to attack each day with an energy that will lead me to where I am destined to be. I have a vision of myself in the future sharing life with a loving family supporting them through a job that brings me sincere satisfaction. I have no doubt that the answer to my dreams is in God's plan for me and would not be surprised to see him surpass my expectations.
As the journey to my destination unfolds, I am not waiting for everything to just fall into place. I am dedicated to aligning my daily activities with events that coincide with my values and beliefs. I plan to use every opportunity as a building block toward my ultimate goal of being the best person I can possibly be. As I encounter obstacles, I will welcome them as challenges that were given to me to help shape my character and with God's help rise above to claim victory as an even better person.
I am looking forward to everything in front of me and will cherish every moment as it arrives. I know I have the strength and ability to thrive and must keep pushing ahead confidently with my head held high!
I realize that my life is not exactly where I wish it would be right now, but I am choosing to attack each day with an energy that will lead me to where I am destined to be. I have a vision of myself in the future sharing life with a loving family supporting them through a job that brings me sincere satisfaction. I have no doubt that the answer to my dreams is in God's plan for me and would not be surprised to see him surpass my expectations.
As the journey to my destination unfolds, I am not waiting for everything to just fall into place. I am dedicated to aligning my daily activities with events that coincide with my values and beliefs. I plan to use every opportunity as a building block toward my ultimate goal of being the best person I can possibly be. As I encounter obstacles, I will welcome them as challenges that were given to me to help shape my character and with God's help rise above to claim victory as an even better person.
I am looking forward to everything in front of me and will cherish every moment as it arrives. I know I have the strength and ability to thrive and must keep pushing ahead confidently with my head held high!
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Being Positive Toward Myself
The most influential person, place or thing in my life has been me. I have allowed myself to experience a wide range of emotions that at times threatened to consume my dreams from the inside out. I have let feelings of depression multiply at critical times in my life that spiraled out of control taking power over my ability to live a positive existence. However, I was saved from that negative lifestyle and now realize how important it is to keep a positive attitude and to speak blessing into my own life.
I am not saying that I have not come across wonderful mentors or experienced benefits from other positive places and things in my life. I am simply trying to convey how powerful my mind has been in leading me toward future happiness and success. My feelings of hope inspired through faith have been a saving grace to a rather lousy situation.
My employment status has absolutely put my practice of using positive energy to influence my future to the test. I have repeatedly been shot down for job opportunities solely due to my past background. At these times, I am bombarded with negative emotions that attempt to take root deep inside.
In order to conquer these feelings, I have been practicing being positive toward myself. On a daily basis, I speak out loud words of encouragement and declare that I will continue to seek and take advantage of new opportunities. I choose to refresh my self image and restore confidence by reminding myself of all the wonderful things I have and continue to be blessed with in life. This persistent positive attitude rejects any negative thoughts and creates a sensation that builds strength inside me inspiring me to propel forward knowing each day that I am that much closer to accomplishing what God has called me to do.
I am not saying that I have not come across wonderful mentors or experienced benefits from other positive places and things in my life. I am simply trying to convey how powerful my mind has been in leading me toward future happiness and success. My feelings of hope inspired through faith have been a saving grace to a rather lousy situation.
My employment status has absolutely put my practice of using positive energy to influence my future to the test. I have repeatedly been shot down for job opportunities solely due to my past background. At these times, I am bombarded with negative emotions that attempt to take root deep inside.
In order to conquer these feelings, I have been practicing being positive toward myself. On a daily basis, I speak out loud words of encouragement and declare that I will continue to seek and take advantage of new opportunities. I choose to refresh my self image and restore confidence by reminding myself of all the wonderful things I have and continue to be blessed with in life. This persistent positive attitude rejects any negative thoughts and creates a sensation that builds strength inside me inspiring me to propel forward knowing each day that I am that much closer to accomplishing what God has called me to do.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
It's Your Life
I was listening to Francesca Battistelli's "It's Your Life" and absolutely loved the message. I felt that the song did a great job capturing how important it is to act with faith from the heart at all times.
The song begins explaining that now is the time to do what you know is the right thing to do. She asks the question in the first verse, "Which way you gonna fall?" Thinking about that question, I had no doubt in my mind that I desire to continue falling toward the right and not the wrong. I also realized that I have all the tools and ability to succeed as long as I think through my decisions and follow my heart.
As the song breaks into the chorus, it really drives home the point that there is only one life to live and people should think before they act. Every choice and every action have repercussions that can ultimately lead down a path of destruction if not handled with care. I believe it also emphasizes the fact that actions can influence other people so it is very important to make a positive impact with every move made throughout life.
The song ends by acknowledging that there is a new opportunity each and every day to start living the way. I know that I have found myself in lousy situations that were a direct result of poor decisions, but I have hope that with the right amount of effort I will be able to minimize these type of future occurrences. So when the song asks "Are you who you always said you would be?", I can honesty answer "I'm on my way!"
Francesca Battistelli "Its Your Life"
This is the moment
It's on the line
Which way you gonna fall?
In the middle between
Wrong and right
But you know after all
It's your life, What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who your heart beats for
It's an open door, It's your life
Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget?
To live the way that you believe
This is your opportunity
To let your life be one that lights the way
The song begins explaining that now is the time to do what you know is the right thing to do. She asks the question in the first verse, "Which way you gonna fall?" Thinking about that question, I had no doubt in my mind that I desire to continue falling toward the right and not the wrong. I also realized that I have all the tools and ability to succeed as long as I think through my decisions and follow my heart.
As the song breaks into the chorus, it really drives home the point that there is only one life to live and people should think before they act. Every choice and every action have repercussions that can ultimately lead down a path of destruction if not handled with care. I believe it also emphasizes the fact that actions can influence other people so it is very important to make a positive impact with every move made throughout life.
The song ends by acknowledging that there is a new opportunity each and every day to start living the way. I know that I have found myself in lousy situations that were a direct result of poor decisions, but I have hope that with the right amount of effort I will be able to minimize these type of future occurrences. So when the song asks "Are you who you always said you would be?", I can honesty answer "I'm on my way!"
Francesca Battistelli "Its Your Life"
This is the moment
It's on the line
Which way you gonna fall?
In the middle between
Wrong and right
But you know after all
It's your life, What you gonna do?
The world is watching you
Every day the choices you make
Say what you are and who your heart beats for
It's an open door, It's your life
Are you who you always said you would be?
With a sinking feeling in your chest
Always waiting for someone else to fix you
Tell me when did you forget?
To live the way that you believe
This is your opportunity
To let your life be one that lights the way
Monday, January 11, 2010
Learning from Life
I started a book called "Become a Better You" today by Joel Osteen. I have high expectations for this book since the other two books I read by the same author brought upon a great deal of inspiration in my life. The title of the book stands for everything I am striving to do throughout this transitional period in my life - I will become a better me.
As I began reading the first chapter "Keep Pressing Forward", I thought about different exercises I could do to move more confidently into the future. When I combined this thought with my determination to reflect daily, I decided that I might be able to find value in exploring past memories filtering through both the good and bad to help shape future decisions.
I thought about all types of memories from all aspects of my life. The process brought about a range of emotions making me really have to concentrate on not letting myself relive the past but learn from it. I explored love, education, friendship, health and family... physically smiling at the happy moments and shaking my head toward the shameful. As I made an outline of each memory that came to mind, I felt relieved as if I had uncorked a wine bottle shaken up and ready to explode.
By reflecting on everything that made me who I am, I realized that the story of my life is far from over. In fact, it was clear that I have been on this 27 year journey in order to get me where I find myself today. I am prepared and on my way to becoming someone great... someone that wouldn't exist if those outlined memories never came to pass.
As I began reading the first chapter "Keep Pressing Forward", I thought about different exercises I could do to move more confidently into the future. When I combined this thought with my determination to reflect daily, I decided that I might be able to find value in exploring past memories filtering through both the good and bad to help shape future decisions.
I thought about all types of memories from all aspects of my life. The process brought about a range of emotions making me really have to concentrate on not letting myself relive the past but learn from it. I explored love, education, friendship, health and family... physically smiling at the happy moments and shaking my head toward the shameful. As I made an outline of each memory that came to mind, I felt relieved as if I had uncorked a wine bottle shaken up and ready to explode.
By reflecting on everything that made me who I am, I realized that the story of my life is far from over. In fact, it was clear that I have been on this 27 year journey in order to get me where I find myself today. I am prepared and on my way to becoming someone great... someone that wouldn't exist if those outlined memories never came to pass.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Giving and Reflection
Today the message at church dealt with finding blessing in life through giving. The main point stressed that giving generously will produce generous rewards. I am a firm believer that people reap what they sow. However, I also believe the nature in how people give can also influence their potential return.
By giving the "right amount", it can become a source of blessing and peace in life. Before hearing my pastor speak today, I felt that people definitely follow their passions and give according to those beliefs. After listening to the message, I can see that giving definitely directs and influences where passion in life will form. For example, if I give money and energy toward the stock market I will be interested on a day to day basis in market activity. Therefore it now makes sense that if I really want to have passion toward something, I must invest resources such as time and money toward that something.
Listening to the message this morning, I also found myself thinking about the importance of daily reflection. Sometimes the pace of life can detour me from taking the time to reflect neglecting a valuable opportunity to evaluate certain decisions and their results. I should spend time thinking about the good and the bad to produce answers to questions such as, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did this happen?" By participating in this type of reflection, I open up the possibility to learn and change behavior accordingly. I will then be able to see the cause and effect relationship identifying what contributed to each result. With this knowledge, I will be able to enjoy a more consistent lifestyle avoiding the repercussions of negative choices and enjoying the benefits of simply doing "what works."
By giving the "right amount", it can become a source of blessing and peace in life. Before hearing my pastor speak today, I felt that people definitely follow their passions and give according to those beliefs. After listening to the message, I can see that giving definitely directs and influences where passion in life will form. For example, if I give money and energy toward the stock market I will be interested on a day to day basis in market activity. Therefore it now makes sense that if I really want to have passion toward something, I must invest resources such as time and money toward that something.
Listening to the message this morning, I also found myself thinking about the importance of daily reflection. Sometimes the pace of life can detour me from taking the time to reflect neglecting a valuable opportunity to evaluate certain decisions and their results. I should spend time thinking about the good and the bad to produce answers to questions such as, "What did I do to deserve this?" or "Why did this happen?" By participating in this type of reflection, I open up the possibility to learn and change behavior accordingly. I will then be able to see the cause and effect relationship identifying what contributed to each result. With this knowledge, I will be able to enjoy a more consistent lifestyle avoiding the repercussions of negative choices and enjoying the benefits of simply doing "what works."
Saturday, January 9, 2010
The Benefits of Change
I remember hearing a story when I was a child that has stuck with me to this day. The story really reinforces the idea that making changes and trying something different can lead to a more desirable outcome. When I am resisting change or having trouble leaving a comfortable situation to try something new, I think back to the following story and trust that whatever it is I am about to implement can bring about extraordinary results.
There once was a boy that came from a family of dentists. His great grandfather was a dentist and his grandfather was a dentist and his father was a dentist and he was planning to be a dentist. To say the least, oral hygene was very important to the entire family. In fact, the boy and his two brothers would often fight about who had the best teeth. In order to out do his brothers, the boy decided he would brush his teeth three times a day for at least five minutes per brushing always flossing before hand.
The boy was so proud of his dedication to having a perfect mouth full of the cleanest teeth. He could not wait to impress his dad during his next cleaning and check up. However during his checkup, the boy heard his dad moaning and groaning as he glared into his son's mouth. He continued to ask his son if he had been brushing his teeth and reported that he had four cavities. The boy could not believe it... he told his dad that he had been brushing his teeth at least 15 minutes per day and routinely flossed for the last six months.
Not doubting his son's claims, the father asked the boy to show him exactly how he went about brushing and flossing his teeth. After the boy finished, his dad immediately asked him to show him again. After completing it the second time, the boy said to his father, "I have brushed my teeth this well everyday since my last check up. How can I have four cavitities?!"
His dad sat his boy down and told him how proud he was that he had tried so hard to practice good oral hygene. However, his father explained that because he brushed and flossed his teeth the same exact way everytime he continually missed the same exact spots resulting in the four cavities!
The boy had the right attitude and dedication to succeed at having great teeth, but he failed because he was too consistent in his ways. If the boy had incorporated just a little change everyday to his brushing habits, he would have been able to cover all the surfaces that needed to be cleaned avoiding his embarrassing four cavities.
There once was a boy that came from a family of dentists. His great grandfather was a dentist and his grandfather was a dentist and his father was a dentist and he was planning to be a dentist. To say the least, oral hygene was very important to the entire family. In fact, the boy and his two brothers would often fight about who had the best teeth. In order to out do his brothers, the boy decided he would brush his teeth three times a day for at least five minutes per brushing always flossing before hand.
The boy was so proud of his dedication to having a perfect mouth full of the cleanest teeth. He could not wait to impress his dad during his next cleaning and check up. However during his checkup, the boy heard his dad moaning and groaning as he glared into his son's mouth. He continued to ask his son if he had been brushing his teeth and reported that he had four cavities. The boy could not believe it... he told his dad that he had been brushing his teeth at least 15 minutes per day and routinely flossed for the last six months.
Not doubting his son's claims, the father asked the boy to show him exactly how he went about brushing and flossing his teeth. After the boy finished, his dad immediately asked him to show him again. After completing it the second time, the boy said to his father, "I have brushed my teeth this well everyday since my last check up. How can I have four cavitities?!"
His dad sat his boy down and told him how proud he was that he had tried so hard to practice good oral hygene. However, his father explained that because he brushed and flossed his teeth the same exact way everytime he continually missed the same exact spots resulting in the four cavities!
The boy had the right attitude and dedication to succeed at having great teeth, but he failed because he was too consistent in his ways. If the boy had incorporated just a little change everyday to his brushing habits, he would have been able to cover all the surfaces that needed to be cleaned avoiding his embarrassing four cavities.
Friday, January 8, 2010
Overcoming Doubt and Adversity
Today I finished reading "It's Your Time" by Joel Osteen. The book had a very positive message and left me feeling inspired strengthening my feelings of faith. Throughout the entire reading, Joel stressed that today is the day to start receiving God's blessings and to actively seek them on a daily basis.
I have struggled to overcome this constant nagging voice inside me that attempts to breed feelings of doubt. I am often troubled when I think back to my past about all the horrible decisions I made landing me in my current situation. However, I can now see that the setbacks in my life have given me wisdom and made me a much stronger person. I am grateful that I was blessed with these critical lessons early in life and will benefit from the experience for the rest of my time here on earth.
I must continue to recognize that the biggest challenges in life bring about the greatest and most surprising rewards. I need to keep gaining strength as I move forward through all the adversity created as a by-product of my decisions. I truly believe that I will be given new opportunities that could lead me to an even better future with more possibilities. I simply need to live day to day with wonderful expectations showing my desire to succeed in everything that I do.
I also understand that there can be many forces of oppression along the way. I must look past any negativity and keep a positive attitude. I will continue to surround myself with people, places and things that breathe life into my ability to reach my goals. I realize that there is a wonderful life ahead and will search with all of my heart to find and fulfill God's plan.
I have struggled to overcome this constant nagging voice inside me that attempts to breed feelings of doubt. I am often troubled when I think back to my past about all the horrible decisions I made landing me in my current situation. However, I can now see that the setbacks in my life have given me wisdom and made me a much stronger person. I am grateful that I was blessed with these critical lessons early in life and will benefit from the experience for the rest of my time here on earth.
I must continue to recognize that the biggest challenges in life bring about the greatest and most surprising rewards. I need to keep gaining strength as I move forward through all the adversity created as a by-product of my decisions. I truly believe that I will be given new opportunities that could lead me to an even better future with more possibilities. I simply need to live day to day with wonderful expectations showing my desire to succeed in everything that I do.
I also understand that there can be many forces of oppression along the way. I must look past any negativity and keep a positive attitude. I will continue to surround myself with people, places and things that breathe life into my ability to reach my goals. I realize that there is a wonderful life ahead and will search with all of my heart to find and fulfill God's plan.
Thursday, January 7, 2010
Keep Shoveling with Pride
This morning I woke up about 5am and, anticipating the snow fall, I decided to walk to the window to see how much had accumulated. Once I saw that there was a good four inches, I put on the warmest clothes I could find and headed outside to shovel so that it would save my father some time before having to leave for work. As I was cleaning off the driveway, I was really thinking about how badly I want to find a job and the struggle it has been to find an employer that is willing to see through my past to trust me with an opportunity.
Later on in the day after several more inches of snow had covered the ground, I headed back outside to once again complete the same task I had finished only hours earlier. This time I was also left contemplating my relentless search to find a job. Specifically, I was thinking of how to arrange a cover letter I planned on writing to a company I was referred to by a long time friend. I was also fighting back negative thoughts that were trying to convince me not to put so much effort into the process since it will probably turn out just like all the previous times - leaving me with a feeling of rejection and still unemployed.
However once I finished shoveling for the second time of the day, I glanced over the wonderful work I had done and was proud to have completed such a quality job. It was at that moment that I connected my dedication to snow removal and my job search. There is no doubt that I will have to soon again shovel the walk at which time I will attack it with the same intensity as I did all the times before not thinking about how quickly God will once again cover the ground.
I will take that same exact attitude and determination toward finding my next job. No matter how many times I might get rejected, I will continue to seek the next opportunity and pour myself into the application process truly believing that this is the time - and looking back on it, I will be proud.
Later on in the day after several more inches of snow had covered the ground, I headed back outside to once again complete the same task I had finished only hours earlier. This time I was also left contemplating my relentless search to find a job. Specifically, I was thinking of how to arrange a cover letter I planned on writing to a company I was referred to by a long time friend. I was also fighting back negative thoughts that were trying to convince me not to put so much effort into the process since it will probably turn out just like all the previous times - leaving me with a feeling of rejection and still unemployed.
However once I finished shoveling for the second time of the day, I glanced over the wonderful work I had done and was proud to have completed such a quality job. It was at that moment that I connected my dedication to snow removal and my job search. There is no doubt that I will have to soon again shovel the walk at which time I will attack it with the same intensity as I did all the times before not thinking about how quickly God will once again cover the ground.
I will take that same exact attitude and determination toward finding my next job. No matter how many times I might get rejected, I will continue to seek the next opportunity and pour myself into the application process truly believing that this is the time - and looking back on it, I will be proud.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Finding Faith
I wrote the following poem after the realization that I needed to rebuild my faith in order to save myself from a path of destruction. At the time I had no idea how I could possibly be able to redirect myself, but also understood that change needed to occur in order to turn everything around in a positive direction. I am thankful that I was blessed with the ability to recognize hope always exists and that with faith I will succeed!
"Finding Faith"
What exactly can a lost soul see
Blind, though eyes open wide
Living like the wind so eerily free
Something missing deep down inside
Direction hard for this soul to follow
Mesmerized by the obstacles in the way
Held still with a heart that's hallow
Making decisions that just won't do today
So forces cry from love to help one find
The way to happiness and sincere fate
With life's clock waiting to unwind
At the will of a higher power's beating rate
Only faith will bring one toward life's goal
Filling the body with all it needs
So never give up hope for the soul
God given goodness always succeeds
"Finding Faith"
What exactly can a lost soul see
Blind, though eyes open wide
Living like the wind so eerily free
Something missing deep down inside
Direction hard for this soul to follow
Mesmerized by the obstacles in the way
Held still with a heart that's hallow
Making decisions that just won't do today
So forces cry from love to help one find
The way to happiness and sincere fate
With life's clock waiting to unwind
At the will of a higher power's beating rate
Only faith will bring one toward life's goal
Filling the body with all it needs
So never give up hope for the soul
God given goodness always succeeds
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Living Patiently with Faith
Driving home after my interview, I was being haunted by this sense of urgency. I have so many wonderful plans for this year and I am aware there is only 365 days available to accomplish them. I am certainly not getting any younger and certainly can not slow down each tick of the clock. So what am I to do!
The only thing I can do is wait patiently with faith and trust that my current actions will bring about positive results. I really must turnover everything to God and believe that there is something wonderful waiting for me. I can feel that God is working all around me... and there are things aligning as I sit here and write that I do not even know are happening.
It is amazing how God works in mysterious ways and constantly sends blessings of all different kinds. I am so thankful for his work in my relationships over the past year. Not only has my family forgiven me for my past actions with love restored, I have been supplied new friendships and even been reintroduced to a relationship with my best friend from childhood. A little over a year ago, my feelings of hopelessness would have made this seem impossible... especially with the reuniting of me and my long time friend due to the conflicting nature of our habits!
With a major change in my lifestyle, I had to completely uproot the people, places, and things in my life. Throughout that process, I felt guilty leaving people I really cared about behind but deep inside I knew it was for the best. However, I ran into my once thought lost best friend during a totally unexpected and much needed time. He happened to have an appointment scheduled immediately after mine at a totally random place... coincidence, It couldn't be!
Since it was a weekly appointment, I was able to see him regularly and rebuild something that could have easily been lost forever - a true friendship. I should have known that God would devise a way for true friends to find a way back into each other's lives during better circumstances. That is exactly how God works... and I carry that faith forward to ease that haunting feeling of urgency.
The only thing I can do is wait patiently with faith and trust that my current actions will bring about positive results. I really must turnover everything to God and believe that there is something wonderful waiting for me. I can feel that God is working all around me... and there are things aligning as I sit here and write that I do not even know are happening.
It is amazing how God works in mysterious ways and constantly sends blessings of all different kinds. I am so thankful for his work in my relationships over the past year. Not only has my family forgiven me for my past actions with love restored, I have been supplied new friendships and even been reintroduced to a relationship with my best friend from childhood. A little over a year ago, my feelings of hopelessness would have made this seem impossible... especially with the reuniting of me and my long time friend due to the conflicting nature of our habits!
With a major change in my lifestyle, I had to completely uproot the people, places, and things in my life. Throughout that process, I felt guilty leaving people I really cared about behind but deep inside I knew it was for the best. However, I ran into my once thought lost best friend during a totally unexpected and much needed time. He happened to have an appointment scheduled immediately after mine at a totally random place... coincidence, It couldn't be!
Since it was a weekly appointment, I was able to see him regularly and rebuild something that could have easily been lost forever - a true friendship. I should have known that God would devise a way for true friends to find a way back into each other's lives during better circumstances. That is exactly how God works... and I carry that faith forward to ease that haunting feeling of urgency.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Turning Thoughts into Actions
Today as I took a break from preparing for my interview to make lunch, my mom was taking a break from doing her Monday cleaning ritual and made the statement, "It's all over." I could feel her post holiday depression and really wished I could make her feel more excited about the new year ahead. I was left with this sudden feeling that said, "Wait I can!"
I immediately took the energy from that moment in the cold garage as she was waiting for the dogs to finish their business in the back yard and gave it my best shot. I said, "Mom it's not over, it's just the beginning to a wonderful year!" I could tell instantly that it made her think about it and she proclaimed, "You are right. There is a wonderful year in store for us."
Afterward, I was so glad I took a detour from my lunch to try and influence her current state of mind. While I was out there I noticed that my hard working mother could also probably use some help with her Monday schedule and offered to help her by completing one of her dreaded chores - picking up the dog poop in the yard. Now that really made her smile!
Looking back at the moment I decided to go into the garage, I'm left wondering about how many opportunities just like this one pass me up on a daily basis. The task was relatively simple compared to the impact it had... and I nearly didn't make it happen. I actually had a moment before I shared that time with her where I was looking at my hot and steamy southwest chicken panini, fresh out of the microwave, contemplating on whether to take the two minutes to talk with her or just go upstairs and devour my lunch. For that indecisive moment, it seemed like such a large hassle and I even found myself trying to justify that it wasn't really a big deal. But it was a big deal in disguise and I am glad I took advantage of the opportunity!
I think its funny that in life there are many things that we can do every day that are rather simple to complete but carry such an amazing amount of potential for impact. With every thought and action, there is the possibility of bringing positive energy and influence into the world. I am attempting to learn to harness my thoughts to transform them into actions that bring about benefit to myself and others. I expect to make listening to my heart second nature and reap the rewards of turning good natured thoughts into actions.
I immediately took the energy from that moment in the cold garage as she was waiting for the dogs to finish their business in the back yard and gave it my best shot. I said, "Mom it's not over, it's just the beginning to a wonderful year!" I could tell instantly that it made her think about it and she proclaimed, "You are right. There is a wonderful year in store for us."
Afterward, I was so glad I took a detour from my lunch to try and influence her current state of mind. While I was out there I noticed that my hard working mother could also probably use some help with her Monday schedule and offered to help her by completing one of her dreaded chores - picking up the dog poop in the yard. Now that really made her smile!
Looking back at the moment I decided to go into the garage, I'm left wondering about how many opportunities just like this one pass me up on a daily basis. The task was relatively simple compared to the impact it had... and I nearly didn't make it happen. I actually had a moment before I shared that time with her where I was looking at my hot and steamy southwest chicken panini, fresh out of the microwave, contemplating on whether to take the two minutes to talk with her or just go upstairs and devour my lunch. For that indecisive moment, it seemed like such a large hassle and I even found myself trying to justify that it wasn't really a big deal. But it was a big deal in disguise and I am glad I took advantage of the opportunity!
I think its funny that in life there are many things that we can do every day that are rather simple to complete but carry such an amazing amount of potential for impact. With every thought and action, there is the possibility of bringing positive energy and influence into the world. I am attempting to learn to harness my thoughts to transform them into actions that bring about benefit to myself and others. I expect to make listening to my heart second nature and reap the rewards of turning good natured thoughts into actions.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Inspiration, Moving Past Regrets and Dreaming Big
As I continue to strive for change in 2010, I realize that a huge part of the success of my journey will develop as a result of inspiration. I will continue to cherish all sources of unexpected motivation, but I will also seek sources of inspiration that are all around me. I will surround myself with positive people, places and things with the hope that they will fill my heart and soul with energy that carries into and throughout my every day life.
My church and the community at Suncrest has a monumental influence over my thoughts and behaviors. Today the message was was titled "No Regrets" bringing about an influx of emotion and ideas to start off 2010 in a way that will enable me to achieve happiness and success. As I thought about my past regrets, I came to realize that although there are many decisions I made that fell below my current expectations the biggest influential force leading me toward an undesirable path was my choice to turn my back on what I knew was right. This decision had a ripple effect in my life that accumulated negativity over time ultimately culminating to a point of Godly sorrow.
However, I believe I have been forgiven for my years of neglect. I am so excited to celebrate my new outlook and to share my freshly found dedication with anyone who joins me along the way. Leaving church this morning, I was left asking myself, "Am I really ready to live a changed life?" At that moment of clarity, I also asked myself, "What does that mean?" I sincerely believe that I am ready to live a changed life and that I will actively seek out everything that would better enable me to achieve the wonderful things God has planned for my life.
I am currently reading "It's Your Time" by Joel Osteen and finished a chapter titled "Praying Bold Prayers" this morning. It inspired me to look beyond my shortcomings and to realize that God has plans for me that I currently can not even comprehend. Instead of simply thanking God for the blessings in my life, I am going to ask him for bigger things and to make me seek my ultimate dreams - no matter how big they might seem. I am expecting wonderful things to occur in my life this year that will make it possible to accomplish more in the future than I could ever think would be within reach.
With a brand new week starting tomorrow morning, I pray that I will actively seek, listen to and walk with God as I search to fulfill my true destiny and live with a spirit that is alive enjoying all the wonderful things put before me.
My church and the community at Suncrest has a monumental influence over my thoughts and behaviors. Today the message was was titled "No Regrets" bringing about an influx of emotion and ideas to start off 2010 in a way that will enable me to achieve happiness and success. As I thought about my past regrets, I came to realize that although there are many decisions I made that fell below my current expectations the biggest influential force leading me toward an undesirable path was my choice to turn my back on what I knew was right. This decision had a ripple effect in my life that accumulated negativity over time ultimately culminating to a point of Godly sorrow.
However, I believe I have been forgiven for my years of neglect. I am so excited to celebrate my new outlook and to share my freshly found dedication with anyone who joins me along the way. Leaving church this morning, I was left asking myself, "Am I really ready to live a changed life?" At that moment of clarity, I also asked myself, "What does that mean?" I sincerely believe that I am ready to live a changed life and that I will actively seek out everything that would better enable me to achieve the wonderful things God has planned for my life.
I am currently reading "It's Your Time" by Joel Osteen and finished a chapter titled "Praying Bold Prayers" this morning. It inspired me to look beyond my shortcomings and to realize that God has plans for me that I currently can not even comprehend. Instead of simply thanking God for the blessings in my life, I am going to ask him for bigger things and to make me seek my ultimate dreams - no matter how big they might seem. I am expecting wonderful things to occur in my life this year that will make it possible to accomplish more in the future than I could ever think would be within reach.
With a brand new week starting tomorrow morning, I pray that I will actively seek, listen to and walk with God as I search to fulfill my true destiny and live with a spirit that is alive enjoying all the wonderful things put before me.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Goals - A Framework for My Future
I was told at a very young age that physically writing down my goals greatly increases the likelihood of accomplishing them. Throughout my time in high school, I placed extra emphasis on completing this task on a yearly basis and even preached about it to those closest to me. I truly believe that taking the time to make concrete statements outlining what I wanted out of life gave me a framework toward moving in a positive direction and lead to a relatively successful start to my adulthood. However, I let the fast pace of life start to control my actions once I started college and dropped this important endeavor. I believe this decision directly contributed to me losing focus opening the door to becoming just another lost soul.
Being unemployed and looking to restart my career, I put extra effort into my first challenge of the year - creating a framework for my future. This task has made me sincerely evaluate my life and generated ideas covering all aspects of life. I was able to honestly consider my values and realize just how positive this process was for my development. With my first interview of 2010 this Monday, I also believe I am more prepared and ready to put forth an accurate representation of who I really am today.
Within the next year, I want to earn the opportunity to work full time for a company that values my growth professionally in a challenging position that will utilize my current knowledge and experience involved with an industry in which I can work with passion. I desire to continue focusing on self improvement and change through daily reflection and take advantage of every opportunity to become a better person and a productive member of the community. I also will place the utmost importance on building and executing a plan to construct a secure future that both settles past/current monetary obligations and aligns with accomplishing my long term goals.
Looking further into my future, I want to be financially independent giving me the opportunity to be a responsible husband and father to a loving family of my own. I want to earn a professional position that allows me to utilize my leadership ability to make a positive impact on a large company. I also want to establish myself as a valued member of my community serving through my church and other non profit organizations.
I am confident that my ability to change and adapt will make it more possible for me to accomplish my short term goals. However, I will not be flexible with choosing a career that I am not passionate about pursuing. In order to make a positive impact and reach the level of desired fulfillment from life, I must be able to approach every day as if it were the best gift I have ever received. I will continue reading positive books that inspire me and make a daily effort to learn and grow. I will simply continue living life to the best of my ability following God's direction. With his guidance and the direction provided by keeping my goals close to my heart, I will succeed!
Being unemployed and looking to restart my career, I put extra effort into my first challenge of the year - creating a framework for my future. This task has made me sincerely evaluate my life and generated ideas covering all aspects of life. I was able to honestly consider my values and realize just how positive this process was for my development. With my first interview of 2010 this Monday, I also believe I am more prepared and ready to put forth an accurate representation of who I really am today.
Within the next year, I want to earn the opportunity to work full time for a company that values my growth professionally in a challenging position that will utilize my current knowledge and experience involved with an industry in which I can work with passion. I desire to continue focusing on self improvement and change through daily reflection and take advantage of every opportunity to become a better person and a productive member of the community. I also will place the utmost importance on building and executing a plan to construct a secure future that both settles past/current monetary obligations and aligns with accomplishing my long term goals.
Looking further into my future, I want to be financially independent giving me the opportunity to be a responsible husband and father to a loving family of my own. I want to earn a professional position that allows me to utilize my leadership ability to make a positive impact on a large company. I also want to establish myself as a valued member of my community serving through my church and other non profit organizations.
I am confident that my ability to change and adapt will make it more possible for me to accomplish my short term goals. However, I will not be flexible with choosing a career that I am not passionate about pursuing. In order to make a positive impact and reach the level of desired fulfillment from life, I must be able to approach every day as if it were the best gift I have ever received. I will continue reading positive books that inspire me and make a daily effort to learn and grow. I will simply continue living life to the best of my ability following God's direction. With his guidance and the direction provided by keeping my goals close to my heart, I will succeed!
Friday, January 1, 2010
Beginning the Chase for Endless Possibilities
It was just last week that I was sitting in my car thinking about just how wonderful life can be... I was quite emotional, even tearing up a bit, realizing that I have the chance to live the life I have always imagined. I simply need to live my life passionately with faith!
It was also at that moment that I recognized how my commitment to change over the past year had made this leap of faith possible and that my dedication to continue with self improvement can bring about a world of endless possibilities.
I have been truly blessed throughout my life with a supporting family and good health. However, I have made some bad choices thus far in life that showed absolutely no respect for my good fortune. I continuously turned my back on what I knew deep inside was the right decision setting myself up for failure.
More often than not, my decisions were based on the desire for instant gratification with no thought about future repercussions. These repercussions led to a feeling in my life that I hope to never experience again - hopelessness. Today these choices continue to haunt me, but I am determined to move forward and conquer my past by walking hand in hand with the Lord leaving that horrible feeling of hopelessness behind only to shine once again in God's glory.
I am anticipating many exciting and positive events in 2010. To fully embrace this journey, I have decided to use this blog to write about my experiences and share my thoughts as I work to reshape my life. I am dedicated to improving my life by focusing on the development of my relationship with God, serving the community, and living a more healthy lifestyle. I can't wait to see just how wonderful this year will be!!!
It was also at that moment that I recognized how my commitment to change over the past year had made this leap of faith possible and that my dedication to continue with self improvement can bring about a world of endless possibilities.
I have been truly blessed throughout my life with a supporting family and good health. However, I have made some bad choices thus far in life that showed absolutely no respect for my good fortune. I continuously turned my back on what I knew deep inside was the right decision setting myself up for failure.
More often than not, my decisions were based on the desire for instant gratification with no thought about future repercussions. These repercussions led to a feeling in my life that I hope to never experience again - hopelessness. Today these choices continue to haunt me, but I am determined to move forward and conquer my past by walking hand in hand with the Lord leaving that horrible feeling of hopelessness behind only to shine once again in God's glory.
I am anticipating many exciting and positive events in 2010. To fully embrace this journey, I have decided to use this blog to write about my experiences and share my thoughts as I work to reshape my life. I am dedicated to improving my life by focusing on the development of my relationship with God, serving the community, and living a more healthy lifestyle. I can't wait to see just how wonderful this year will be!!!
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